Caitlin Helms

blah, blah, blah.. summer bores me…

blogs are precious because they give people an opportunity to share their thoughts with the WORLD.. so here are mine…

now that i’m done with my freshman year at Biola here’s what i got.. first of all, i’ve never met such an amazing plethora of people. ever. it took coming home and being away from them for a week for me to realize that i’m pretty much obsessed with my friends i have. and let’s see.. SOS. i joined this thing called SOS. i could go into the entirety of this, but God knows that i would be rambling on paragraph after paragraph explaining to you countless reasons why it’s one of the biggest blessings i’ve received. i mean, honestly.. complete and utter blessing. i’ll leave it at that. 

the biggest, most exciting thing ever.. i get to email my SOS students in six days.. SIX DAYS! this is a big deal. i’ve been praying for them for months now. they’re the reason i’m in SOS. i can’t wait to get to know them and show them the ropes during SOS week (and throughout the year, of course)!
something i’m really looked forward to next year apart from SOS week.. i’m doing a soul group with my good friend Morgan. this should be quite interesting. we’ll be leading a group of freshman girls in a Bible study. both of us have never led one before, but God’s going to do some great things and teach all of us some great things, i already know it. and it’s going to be neat because Morgan and i went to soul group together our freshman year.. we’ll see!
let’s see.. another exciting thing… next year i will have literally the best suite in Stewart ever. we’re going to be a suite group of art majors (get it? suite… like sweet.. haha). after RA walkthroughs we are talking all our beds down and putting them in one room and making an art studio in the other.. it’ll be rad. i love the girls i’m going to be living with too. God blessed us so greatly. and we also have planned Screamo Sundays.. every Sunday we’re going to have a social gathering in our suite where we play screamo and just hang out… just something fun. a new way to meet people and to just have an interesting time. we have some “competition” though.. a ridiculous pansy named Kayci has come up with the “idea” of “Showtune Sundays” because she hates screamo.. there’s a total of 4 people on board for that… 20+ on board for Screamo Sunday.. booyah.

what else… Mock Rock was such a blast. i don’t think i’ve ever been as exhausted as i was in the month of March. so brutal.. but so good. it was during Mock Rock i missed my first class….
ok. and God did some SERIOUS work in me this semester. it was actually ridiculous. He provided me with the most amazing people ever to help me through things that i needed to get through in order to strengthen my faith and in order than i may have a mature faith. so good. i’m still working through those problems, but i’m in such a better place spiritually than i was 4 months ago.. with the thanks of those who had literally multi-hour conversations with my contumacious self that often lasted until the wee hours of the morning.. they’ll never read this because they don’t know i tumble, but they’re amazing. God has blessed me beyond belief with their supportive, encouraging friendship.
Reality LA.. so, my church back up at school, Reality, did a series on Hosea. every single freaking weekend i was so ridiculously convicted. i absolutely love that church. Halie and i are tripping up to LA tomorrow so we can go to Reality! i’ve never been more excited for Sunday morning church. ever.
there was also a time last semester when i was in the worst spiritual rut i’ve ever been in. God helped me out.

favorite memories of freshman year:
1. Jonathan Anderson’s Drawing 1 class.
2. the first night SOS went out after Mock Rock practice.. the McDonald’s parking lot. it was the party.
3. SOS retreat.

4. desert night.
5-6. both SOS beach days

7. my last night/day at Biola.

so, last things before i end this.. my last night/day at Biola was the best. my last night i was in my friend Christa’s room with her and my friend Dakota. she fell asleep  so we went back to my room. ran into a prayer circle on my floor (i love that i run into those at my school) and prayed with some awesome girls. went back to say bye to my friend Celiz  (by this time it was like 2am), was conversing with her outside her room and we both ended up falling asleep in the hallway until 4am. when she woke me up i was so out of it because i had barely had sleep the night before and i was R.E.M. sleep deep  (i had dreamt about Staryu and Starmie, the Pokemon ). so, i said bye to her and about halfway back to my dorm i realized i had just partaken in a goodbye and i got really upset. part of it i think was because i was so tired, but i was really upset about that. the next day i spent with Christa. we just hung out all day and had a good time. we had a great conversation about God over some froyo . after we met up with my awesome crew leader Greg, who makes me laugh more than anyone, and we collaborated musically. it’s a screamo rap collab. he raps, i screamo. it’s called “Seasons” . we’re Sandman and c*. it’s going to be a hit. then i met up with my friend i like to refer to as the queen bee, and played her “Seasons”, anticipated next year’s events living on her floor, and had a good little God talk. went back to my room. started packing at 3 am, finished at 8am. said bye to Christa at 8am (saddest goodbye ever. i almost started crying like ten times.) that’s the end of the good stuff. after that i went home. 
i don’t think i’ve ever been more bummed to be away from school during summer. Biola truly is such an amazing place. i genuinely love the people i’ve met there. i love that there’s chapels nearly every day of the week and that it’s an all-Christian community. but while this past year was a time in which i poured time into others to cultivate rich relationships, it’s time for me to focus on pouring time into my relationship with God. there’s a lot of distractions at Biola, which are awesome.. but not always good spiritually. i need to sit with God this summer and work through things with Him. He’s already doing His work… now until August 11th.. 

so, basically.. this was a long post. it was more meant for myself to debrief this past semester. and because i have nothing to do but blog when i’m back at home, haha… if you read all of this, i’m genuinely amazed that you care that much. i appreciate your observance of my life.

ok, bye. HAGS.

tumblr.. my sanctuary. the place i can go and tell my deepest thoughts.. some may call tumblr their “diary”… i call my tumblr my soul. anyway, i think i should lay down some of my most near and dear resolutions for this upcoming year. i mean, my blood is just boiling inside of my veins right now on behalf of this moment in time.. not only is it a new year, but it’s a new BEGINNING! it brings shivers down my spine just thinking about it! anyway, here are my *resolutions*:

1. i need to acquire all of the Bob Dylan vinyl. no exceptions. the livelihood of my ears obviously depend upon it.
2. i need to go on a diet. swim suit season is just around the corner and you know i’m gonna want to get my tan on!
3. i’m going to learn the guitar and be able to shred like **John Mayer**!
4. i’m saving up for vacation so i can go to Paris! i can’t wait to shop!
5. i’m going to maybe consider giving some money to a homeless person every now and again…
6. i’m not going to lie at all!
7. i’m going green!

<3 

but with the hurt
light came leaping;
in the shock and shine
abstracts took flesh and flew 

winged words like view and space
shape and shade and green and sky
bird and horizon and sun 
turned real in a man’s eye

thus was truth given a face
and dark dispelled
and healing done 

my reading assignments for drawing are lovely.